He was found sitting on the sofa by his dad, and that must have been one of the worst things in life. To find your child dead just like that, before you, and so unexpected... My thoughts go out to his mum and dad, brother and daughters... I can not believe the grief they have gone through, the sadness and so many tears... I know how strongly I reacted to this, as he has always been there for and with our family creating memories. He lived just across the road, used to come out on the boat, have BBQs, saunas and jacuzzi nights drinking beer, ice racing in the winter and just normal activities like sitting at home watching a movie or Eurovision song contest...
I still can not believe it and I've been thinking about it almost every day. It hurts inside to not attend to his funeral which was today, not to say goodbye and not to help his family to go through this... To be there and show them how sorry I am and to tell them what a wonderful son, dad and friend he was.
I am at the writing moment crying for the second time today. It's an empty space, all the memories that is there feels... It feels, weird. I don't have any words for it, non at all, which is very abnormal for me...
To be in a different country and be this helpless... Not to be able to do anything, to change anything, to help anyone is a new feeling for me as I am normally there for my loved ones and they are there for me. Not to have anyone around me knowing him, not being able to talk about it, just letting the thoughts wander away...
Rest In Pease Mikael Kling. You will always be remembered by everyone who knew you and you will still live in everyone's hearts.
Vila i frid...
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