Already crawled up in bed - check!

I think I am starting to catch something, just so tired and my head is spinning... Maybe I just need sleep, so therefore I am all cuddled up in bed early and will make no attempt of staying up late, today I am papering myself and need my sleep. I did have energy for some shopping after yosushi, got that blazer I wanted and a few pieces of jewellery. I get paid tomorrow so more will come then! If I feel any better of course... It's probably just my mind making it up as I'm still in holiday mood and I forgot about all the work-stress, but I reckon a long sleep tonight and then weekend starts tomorrow after work, that will make me feel much better :)

Another thing that do make me feel better for certain, is my nephew Tim. He is so fat and adorable and his smile just makes me want to take the next flight home and just cuddle the crap out of him! Such a cute little guy, and I do miss him and the rest of my family. Guess that is what happens when you are in a foreign country, all the things you took for granted is not longer there. It is hard to deal with, because I can't just jump into the car driving to my mum whenever I want to, I can't go for dinners at my grandmas at the weekends or jump into the hottub and sauna at my dads. Things that use to be there, people that was a part of your daily life is just not as close anymore. Sure I can always call them, but sometimes just sitting quiet together in front of the tv is underestimated. I want to have that, not everyday, or even once a week. But I want to have the opportunity to just call one of my best friends up, go shopping and then have coctails in the garden while talking about everything, giggling about everything...

I have people around me here, don't get me wrong. And I would not want to give up what I have over here either. But at the moment my mum has a cold, and I just want to go over to her with a rented movie an a bag of sweets just sitting there with her. Same as I want her here sometimes, too bad you can't have it all haha

Oh I shouldn't start thinking about this, it only makes me sensitive. I know all my loved once back home is there for me, same way as I am there for them. But to miss out on stuff over there and just hearing them over the phone tryin to help and comfort, is not enough. For those occasions I want to be there, when someone dies, don't have a job anymore, being ill or even such a thing as seeing Tim grow up. I want to be there, at the same time I want to continue with my life over here. It's like I left everything back home and just went without thinking of the consequences. Of course that is what I did, and I think I needed it to realise what I had over there. You never know what you lost til it's not there...

But I have learnt to appreciate family more, and to appreciate life. I've built up an entire new life over here and I came with nothing (ok, one suitcase of shoes and one with clothes haha). But I didn't knew anyone in England what so ever, and now I have some lovely friend, a well paid job and shit loads of traveling. I live an amazing life, but sometimes I wish I could have my family close to just be with them...

Back to reality, but how cute isn't my nephew on this picture?!